I think sometimes I wake up and sit down to write and my goal is to pen clever words. Well, the fact is, that I am just not that clever. I don’t have to feel bad about that. I do have the ability to be direct and that is often far more important that brilliant analogy and witty words.

Today I want to just use that ability to be direct and tell you some basic things.

I have lived life filled with hopelessness. I have failed to succeed doing the things God has said I need to do in his word. I gave up and declared myself a failure and sat in my self-loathing doing nothing. All hope was gone.

Job 14:7 “Even a tree has more hope! If it is cut down, it will sprout again and grow new branches. 8 Though its roots have grown old in the earth and its stump decays, 9 at the scent of water it will bud
and sprout again like a new seedling.”

Psalm 71:14 But I will keep on hoping for your help; I will praise you more and more. 15 I will tell everyone about your righteousness. All day long I will proclaim your saving power, though I am not skilled with words.

I have lived a life with no hope. Then, when I stopped trying to fill my life with hope that I manufactured, I allowed God to fill me with hope that he provides. I was amazingly transformed by grace to be filled with hope which cannot be exhausted. I still become tired and worn down by life from time to time but I know, I am confident, I am sure, that my hope will still be there and will abound.

I have lived life ruled by depression. I have been beaten down by my thoughts and the things that swirl around in my skull devouring my good thoughts and spewing out nonsense. I have done all I know how to do to be happy. I have joked, self-medicated, given myself the desires of my flesh all to no avail. I failed to even make a dent in this affliction. I have prayed to God, not for help so much as demanding to know, “WHY?”

I have to be honest and tell you that depression is still a part of my life. Sometimes I sit and feel deep sorrow and I can see the edge begging for me to come closer and fall into the chasm of loneliness and sadness. But today I have learned that I can turn away from it and begin taking those painful steps back to sanity.

It is still a part of my life but it does not dictate what tomorrow will bring any more. God has risen up out of the ashes of my failure and built a new me that can live a life that is in constant motion toward who he designed me to be.

Galatians 2:20 My old self has been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me. So I live in this earthly body by trusting in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.

I could go on and on about the things I have failed to do and now have found success through the power of Christ. I now know that I am asked to bring very little to the table in order to succeed. God is all I really need.

When life brings me to a crossroads and my failure looms before me like the giant towered over David. I am learning that my strength isn’t what will save me. It is God’s strength that will step up and work through me. What a privilege it is to have my puny power replaced by God’s unlimited abilities.

There is hope and there is resurrection available today. There is a miracle waiting to happen to you today. It may not be a miracle that happens in the twinkling of an eye. It may take some time. I’ve seen them happen over and over again.

Some days it is all I can do to take five steps. Some days I take thousands. When I sit down in the morning and talk to God, he makes sure all of those steps are in the right direction. I am trying to make them all count.

John 10:27 “My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me. 28 I give them eternal life, and they will never perish. No one can snatch them away from me, 29 for my Father has given them to me, and he is more powerful than anyone else. No one can snatch them from the Father’s hand.30 The Father and I are one.”

 

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9 thoughts on “Hope, Hope and More Hope

  1. So well written! I can sympathize on so many levels. Growing up, things like depression were just taboo, things that good Christians didn’t deal with. It wasn’t until someone spoke some godly wisdom into my life at 30, that I’ve started to see that it’s OK to struggle with it. And started established habits to walk away from the temptation of the cliff, just succumbing to it. It is work, but changing my thinking and basing it in truth helps a lot!

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  2. Your words are marvelous. We need to deal directly with others. The truth is, we all need to realize that Christ died for us so that we will never die. Our sin is a reminder of how much we need a savior.

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